Surrendering…

"Lord, I’m done, teach me to surrender,

I have struggled, suffered and faced failure too,

Counted a-lot on my own capabilities, but barren are the works,

Loosing hope on myself, now I wanna count on You,

Strayed I was, walked on way I have prepared for all,

Selfish will, temptations and desires kept me,

Always away from being close to you,

Heart which is now in grief, asks me,

Why didn’t I hear you, when You were calling me,

Your voice was like a patient father,

Who knows how to make the child right,

Long back, I heard a story of a good shepherd,

Now I know why believers call you,

b’coz you have been looking for lost sheep’s like me,

Though you saw me messed up in relationships, You were patient,

Was doing things which were wrong, but calmly You make it right,

I blamed you for all the disturbances in life, You heard my complains,

I don’t know I got stubborn and Hurted people around me too,

But you made them tender hearted so they may accept me again and again,

And at the same time You took that time to draw me close to you,

Was questioning to you, You saw me immature,

You took your time, b’coz You only said there is a time for every thing,

Lack of maturity did not allow me to know You,

B’coz I utilized that time to make fun and,

Did things which I was not supposed do& shouldn’t have done,

I shouldn’t blame my friends, b’coz I choose them too,

They were nice and helped me to see the world around me,

It was I who was silent and didn’t talked about You,

No excuses but it was a fellowship which my soul longed to have,

Fellowship, which woke me up to praise you Master,

Unexpected but happened at a place, which shows a small plan of Yours,

Sharing about you and knowing about you is really awesome experience,

Now I talk, have faith and form a new alpha I wanna repent,

Fill me with the desire to seek and find refuge in you,

Yaa, I’m lost and I want to be found by you…"