Writing pad of God…

“Understanding God's love for us is like trying to see the whole sky in a glance,

Every glance we see a new cloud, to every one it’s different in shape and size,

Some times a teddy, some times a bunny, some times a tree, some times a muffin,

Some times a heart, some times it’s in the shape of the one we love,

If we smile and treasure even these small light moments of our lives,

How much more can God bless us when we just accept him our lives.

Sky is like a plain paper, and clouds acts as ink when God writes,

At times there is no empty space left, looks like a lover express his love,

Even if the page is blank, it has a lot to tell.

A cloud when comes in front of sun,

It’s like God has put His hand to give us shade and rest,

A cloud when drops water form it,

It’s like God says to every living creature “Rejuvenate”,

When the sky is bare without clouds, and sun in the middle of the sky,

It’s like God say’s sweat, so that we may not take His grace otherwise,

A cloud when doesn’t stop squeezing itself and keeps on crying,

It’s like it wanted to say, repent as God wants us to make a new start,

A cloud when stops visiting us

It’s like it wanted to say, don’t rely on your own it’s The God who provides.

A cloud in spring, a cloud in summer

A cloud in autumn, a cloud in winter

Seasons are different, and clouds may appear in different forms,

Attributes of Gods Character are many, but it’s the same God, who keeps an eye.

And stretched his arms on cross and said “I love you”.

Let not your life be just a dot …

In my school days, when I used to study mathematics I purposely used to like the drawing part, which we usually call geometry. Though mathematics was a nightmare but I used to like the geometry part because you can get marks even at drawing the geometrical shapes asked. It may sound funny, but to get passing marks was really hard for me, especially in this subject. Any how, that part of life is over, no more mathematics no more geometry.

But recalling the memories of those classes, if I talk about the simple basics of geometry, a dot is referred as a point and a line is called collection of dot or a point. A dot will be just a dot until and unless it’s been stretched out to take a shape, it can be anything triangle, circle, rectangle anything. Every shape is drawn to get an answer. Sometimes, to get some specific calculation a person has to use different shapes to reach the answer. A dot is just a point which simply doesn’t have any value in geometry figures. Thought when it’s extended and given a shape it delivers the purpose of rather being just a dot.

Same is with our lives, though its functioning is not the same as a dot. But still displays similar characteristics.

Point of success and points of failures are nothing but just a point at which we stand and spend our lives. It’s to say that, if a dot bounces at its spot it doesn’t go any where its still at its place; same is with our lives even after getting materialistic wealth and accomplishments we still be at the same spot. Through human eyes our lives might look moving but lives start taking shape when it’s the spirit moves towards the will of God. The will of God embarks our lives to take a shape. There is nothing wrong in fulfilling our desires and dreams or plans.

But as Bible says “Commit thy works unto the Lord, and thy thoughts shall be established.” Proverbs 16:3 (KJV)

As a mathematician draws a specific geometric shape for a specific calculation. He knows the best use of each shape in reaching the solution. And it’s the same mathematician who has put the dot on the blank paper with a plan and a purpose. Each Geometric shape has twists and turns before reaching a specific shape. It’s always at the completion of the work the shape fulfills its purpose, till then it’s just what it can do is to trust the mathematician and be patient. Totally dependent on the Creator. And here we can differentiate ourselves form the dot, as God has blessed us with the intelligence and a spirit. But here at same time we take His grace otherwise and act on our own will and let our spirit get strangled.

As a student I still remember I used to make a lot of mistakes in interpreting the questions to draw the shape and used to use a lot of eraser to rub the diagram to reach the required shape. And if I don’t understand the question I just take the basic idea and draw some thing, and used to get some additional marks. Though it didn’t work every time, I failed once. This is what I was in my school life.

Now looking back in the past as such these memories and comparing these with the real life is just exciting. After knowing the Lord in my life, this part of my life just makes me think and say to it’s an amazing journey. From my past I learnt that I’m just a dot who has been placed on the surface of earth with a purpose. Gathering memories like these I can say that life has taken a lot of twists and turns like a geometrical shape, and still is going on. I know that I’m with a purpose anointed form God Himself, but how am I going to achieve it all depends on Gods ways. I just have to rely on God as the dot relies on the mathematician. A simple dot teaches us, how to totally surrender, being patience and trust. One more vital thing I learn from dot, its relationship, till the moment it’s connected with the vision of the mathematician its going to have a destiny a perfect shape. Same is with our lives till the moment we stay connected with God, lives will move in God’s way or either if we want to use our own wisdom then snares and traps are there to trap us. The choice is always ours unlike dot.

As a dot is drawn for a specific purpose, our lives too are destined with a specific purpose. Our lives can be transformed and can be used in a very different way, if we let the God use us. Thought at times we go wrong and sin against Almighty, but it’s the same God who has given as an eraser called repentance to us to erase the past mistakes by just confessing and repenting on it. All this will depend on us what we choose, to get the perfect predestined shape or self driven bounce at the same spot.

Secondly, sometimes mathematician uses many different geometrical shapes and puts them together to reach the answer. But a Wrong geometrical shape can ruin the whole calculation and may lead to the wrong answer. It’ll be a total waste of time and our efforts. Similarly, People are going to come in our lives and Influence our decisions and lives. It’s again up to us to choose the right person (Shape) in our lives.

Before taking a shape a dot has to move, and so do we, though moving is not always comfortable, that too if you don’t know the future events which will take place in times to come. But it’s the same God who gives his assurance saying:

"Keep your lives free from the love of money and be content with what you have, because God has said "Never will i leave you; never will forsake you." So we say with confidence, The Lord is my helper, i will not be afraid. What can man do to me?  . Heb 13:5-6

We can find numerous people around us with testimonies testifying the word of God in there lives. Lives taking shape form no were.

About me, I was an average student who always tried to get the passing marks first and then some extra marks. As growing up I always desired visiting different counties to know there culture, there language, there food, always wanted to talk to them, sharing experience and visiting the beautiful locations. It was just a desire a dream which come true when I got the chance to study in Thailand. At times I still find very hard to believe that it’s been almost 4 years now that I’m outside my home country, and working. This is what I never dreamt of … it was just a thought and I keep it in my prayers. Moving to Bangkok has brought a great transformation in my spiritual life. A Sunday going Christian to a believer. It’s just a glimpse of in my past. But want to say, it’s not by chance not but coincidence… I believe, it was pre-destined for me to see and take these twists & turns to be a believer in Our God.

This story started form a small town Hoshangabad and is still going on in Bangkok and I have a hope in the Lord to move forward too.

A cup of cappuccino...

“Sat down on the church bench for a while, than knelt down,

Mind which used to hop around was still,

Was still, like it was hooked on some issues in life,

A hot cappuccino was at my side, which I was sipping at regular intervals of my personal time,

Mind was still, but heart was feeling heavy and don’t know what terrible happened to this part,

Was not able to laugh, and was not able to move my chick muscles to smile,

All of a sudden a call comes, may be to remind me of my priorities.

That cup of cappuccino was still on right hand side,

Even now, mind was still and wanted to ponder on certain things regarding life,

Holy Book I wanted to read I kept it on my other side,

I thought of moving forward, by talking to God and my brother Jesus,

Sill that cappuccino was at my other side,

Slowly eyes started searching for something and that small organ, which we call heart,

Started asking big questions why, what and wanted to know the God’s plan.

Surrounding was as usual, humans talking, birds chirping and work noise was going around,

It’s been 30 minutes now, still sipping cappuccino; I started asking why I haven’t started the talk,

I’m making the busiest spirit to wait for my start,

It happens very less, that your mind has stopped thinking and asking for more,

Don’t know what was happening,

But soon realized the my heart started thinking and enjoying the cappuccino in my hand,

I’m still not able to find out what’s going on with my still mind.

I kept my orange color pen down for a while,

And started asking to myself which chapter should I open to hear from God,

Randomly, answer I got form within,

Zachariah the prophet was taking about his dreams from God,

Cappuccino was getting less and was getting cold too,

Reason behind the dream, even for choosing a hot cappuccino is there,

Now the cappuccino was cold and was bitter in taste, but what to say when heart says woow.

Last sip was left and though I was sitting I realized that my knees are going weak,

And urge came from body to heart to bow down in front of God,

Asking Him to reveal the mysteries of dreams which I had,

Someone has lit a candle there, which I didn’t notice before,

Took my attention, when it started to struggle to keep its flame against the wind,

Still the mind was still and heart was doing the pondering job,

Reflecting on candles potential to keep the flame.

I analyzed, it was the amount of time a candle thread has to spend with the wax to keep its flame,

Is my heart hearing right, that God is asking me to spend time with Him,

And in His time He’ll reveal the His plan,

Now a voice, very loud, saying, I’m the candle thread, who has to take the challenges of life,

Making the word of God as the wax to my life, to walk and to do His will ,

Still that last sip is there, and I know that it has gone really bitter and cold,

I’m eager to taste this part of cappuccino even thought it’s not hot.

Still holding myself from having it, don’t know what that sip wants to say and reflect on my life,

Last sip is there and says that you should have had it when it was hot,

Yaah, we all have to understand why Almighty has turned simple clay into human,

I soon found out, that my life is not very long and I have to taste the will of God,

Before I miss the chance I got,

Missing it, means, have to bear the consequences,

Which is same as having a cold and bitter cappuccino in hand.”

Relationship...

“Let’s talk, let’s take a walk together,

Enough of I, let’s indulge ourselves to be we,

Now, let’s take time and effort to know each other,

Let’s be friends, let’s learn to complement each other.

Let’s build this relationship, on the bed rock called “Jesus”, (Bed rock is the base of house)

Let’s confess, that we are not perfect,

Let’s take a solemn vow that, we’ll forgive each other,

Let’s learn to be the shadow of each other, (Protection to each other)

Let’s bury the ego we have,

Let’s selfishness be past,

Let’s talk, let’s take a walk together.

Let’s not live in fantasies we have heard about been together,

And no matter what, we won’t pause communication between us,

At times I’ll be a brother when you need brotherly care,

At times I’ll be your friend when you need someone who can cry with you,

And for sure I’ll the one, who’ll take the charge,

Indeed Jesus is our savior; and he’ll be the center of our life,

Let’s talk, let’s take a walk together.

We are on a voyage of togetherness,

And though it may take some time to accept and adjust,

But let’s learn to appreciate and respect each others individualities,

And let’s learn to live by the wisdom from God,

Let secrets be not a cause of hindrance in this voyage,

Lets love be the boat and trust be the paddle to drive to the end of the shore,

Let’s talk, let’s take a walk together.

Word Relationship in itself, is a definition,

It’s a word which produces a sweet sound called “love”,

It stands tall and strong when it’s based on trust,

Its arms can lift heavy situations, when it’s powered by reliance and coordination,

It lasts long when we are ready to make corrections,

It does not have any rules but it’s based on the commitments,

Let’s talk, let’s take a walk together.”

He was there…

"Broken and chrushed form inside,

Running here and there to find peace in my mind,

Isolating this tired body and soul,

Smile has shrinked and I’m With a false smile on my face,

And is too a signature that I have lost.

There is a person within me says I give up … can‘t take it any more,

At the edge of cliff I find myself,

Taking a step further could be last,

But looking behind, it’s Jesus, who was holding my hand,

He asked me to stop for a while and initiated the talk.

Tears form my wounded heart was flowing and can be referred as rain showers,

I was telling my story, how my dreams and desires got shattered,

I was telling about my pain,

And again and again I was saying cant take it any more.

He placed, His wounded hand on my shoulders now,

Later I looked down; saw holes in His feet’s,

I looked up and saw tears in His eyes for me.

He asked me, why are you making me cry,

Didn’t I put the corrections but was ignored,

Didn’t I try to bless you with right but you yourself choose the things you want,

Was I not there when you needed help, but instead of Me you went with someone else,

Didn’t I tell you what to do when you asked, but you overlooked it and said come on it’s my life,

Didn’t I keep on saying “I love you” at every point of your life,

But you said thanks I don’t need it from you,

Didn’t I ask you to forgive otherwise it’ll be a burden on you,

But you said no, they have to pay for that,

Didn’t I ask you to confess and repent,

But you said life is once let me enjoy,

Didn’t I tell you, I know you inside and out and know the best for you,

But you said leave me alone,

Didn’t I ask you to please only The Mighty God,

But you said let me do it for superiors first and peoples around,

Didn’t I ask you to let Me bring light and peace in your life,

But you said I’m happy chasing my dreams.

At last He said, the worries you have, is not from Me,

It’s you, who has created it, even after hearing My call,

I said white, you said black,

I said right, you said left,

I said light, you said dark,

I said choose Me, you turned your back towards me.

But you know I have loved you, I still love you and will love you,

No matter, you want me or not,

It’ll be always your choice to choose Me and call on My name."